brutus, is that you?

you know how you can give so much of yourself and still come up short? how can you not take things personally when you dedicate almost every waking moment to see things through. missing breakfast, living on zestos or plus juices, eating lunch around 3pm, eating dinner (sometimes) and coming home at around 10 at times and having to get up at 6am the next day to do it all over again?

defending someone because you believe that there is good in that person regardless of their occassional bouts of dishonesty. the benefits outweigh the damages, right?

but despite all your best efforts, you still end up being stabbed in the back. time and time again. frustrating, no? sometimes you just want to pack up and go, leaving everything you know behind and start over. but life is never really like fairy tales. best thing you can do is suck it in. whats even more sad is the fact that as time passes on, you begin to immune yourself to such treacheries and choose to add a drop of doubt into almost every one you come in contact with. do i really want to live like that?

i choose to believe and trust in people. call me gullible and childish. but thats just me. i choose to trust in that person and its up to them if they choose to destroy it or not. its out of my hands. but i have the right to choose how i see people. that's as far as to what i can control.

Jesus had the same kind of people in His life. why should i be any different?