baby talk and some more talk

enchanted by eva

in my continuing times spent with the new love of my life, i am learning so many things about myself and babies. she gets more and more adorable each day. i know i'm gushing so much but you would feel the same way the moment you see her. she is such a stunner. can't wait to see how she looks like in a few years. gonna break a lot of hearts, thats for sure.

my baby/ies are not gonna look like that even if i tried kidnapping somebody hahaha wishful thinking on my part, i guess. wouldn't it be wonderful though.

i always thought i wanted my first kid to be a boy. boys are easier and you really need to roughen them up. i enjoy dressing boys (based on past experiences). but now... a girl is not that bad after all.

getting ready for her party has been a lot of fun. but the only thing that gets to me is that so many people want to get involved. a bit tooo much. but, damo ga palangga gid man kay eva so everyone wants in on the action. i hope it doesn't rain on thursday.

i have a message...

i had a lot of good messages the other day. must have gotten at least 5 good ones. but these are my favorites.

Mimi : "it is better for a girl to sleep a hundred years and be kissed and awakened by the right prince than to stay awake and be kissed a hundred times by the wrong frog." --- ahem!

Tessa : " strangers at one point, good friends in time. Nobody knows how our world works. Its a matter of time when you truly appreciate a person. A matter of fate : where the right people are at the right place and at the right time. Nobody understands how the universe conspires for us to meet the people we'll love or have connections with. But then, it just happens : you click and the story begins." --- ahem ahem!

go jaguars!

my brother and dad came up with the name. my brother also made the logo. not bad, huh? better than the hercor pugs, thats for sure. hahaha pugs mean stupid, ugly and extremely sensitive. i should know. we have 5. but they have their own charm and wouldn't change them for the world. but they make really horrible mascots.

can't wait for the capiz intercollegiate basketball association games to start. their sponsored by our good governor, governor vic tanco. saves us from a lot of controversy and questionable uses of hard earned funds. our kids are all gigil to get even. they've been practicing so hard. i hope they make it to the end. tomorrow is their first game. keeping my fingers crossed. not to mention my brother has to give a speech as well tomorrow along with the rest of the other school presidents. i am sooo glad its not me.

love at first sight

this is eva. my cousin's daughter, the first great grandchild in our family. she has melted every heart so far. can you blame those baby blues? daw indi gid ka ilog kay tita, no? ha! :D

after waiting so long they are finally here. worth the wait. can't believe larissa has a kid na. seems only yesterday i was in dallas for her wedding, talking the night before her wedding. wow! time flies.

definitely more pics of her in the days to come!

click click

click your heels 3x times, dorothy...

have you ever found yourself in a situation wherein you can't believe everything is falling apart? the most important people in your life are just slipping through your fingers and you wonder, is this even real? is this happening? when did the journey spiral out of nowhere? one day you thought you knew where things were, the next, its like, who are these people?

these are the days wherein you wish you were dorothy and you had the key to go home the whole time. all it takes is a simple clicking of your heels and you wake up. if life were only that simple.

which one are you?

i have a friend who recently lost her boyfriend in a very tragic way. if i were in her shoes i'd probably be a wreck. i'm so proud of the way she is handling herself and i can't even begin to imagine if i were in her shoes. i would be so devastated.

anyway, we were texting this morning and our conversation suddenly shifted to who we were in terms of the sex in the city cast. i know, a bit dated, considering the show ended a while ago na. but hey! their making a movie out of it. so we're not as dated after all.

so as usual, i tend to be categorized as charlotte. i know its a compliment in many respects but at the same time i have to think back... charlotte had the worst luck in men! while samantha got all the hot ones! hmmm... my friend compared herself to miranda. i dunno... never really thought about it. a bit of carrie wouldn't hurt either. minus the flower accessory. just some fun analogy at 7 in the morning. something different to start out my day and week for that matter. and anything to cheer her up.

the rest is still unwritten..

and the writing keeps on going...

i had so much fun this weekend. a bit of edits in the plans but still worked out even better.

got to spend time with my grandmother and pam in molo, friday night. wanted to go out pa but with the rain and everything else i had to do the next day, i didn't want to kid myself. so was in bed my 9pm. not bad. good thing i was tired from all the travelling and going around doing errands that it wasn't hard for me to doze off.

woke up at 5am, trying not to wake pam up in the process. she was sleeping so peacefully i didn't want to wake her. she woke up anyways but was able to be persuaded to go back to sleep.

at around 6:30 i was checking in at west town since i know from experience we'll be stuck in the courts the whole day. good thing our room was available already so my bag was securely stored.

found myself in a jollibee in the mandaue building somewhere in jaro (i forget the street). i've never really been there before. just pass by on my way to iloilo. so there i was waiting for my 6 orders of pancake sandwiches, tocino meal, 3 pineapple juices, 2 iced teas and 1 hot choco. it was quite peaceful with just me and a korean girl eating her own tocino breakfast.

jing arrived on the 5am bus which got to iloilo around 7am. meeting up with the others later on. rexam was coming from bacolod so was gonna meet up with him at the courts with the others.

i haven't been playing that often lately so it was nice to see a lot of new faces. especially players from kalibo. i just enjoyed the fact that we were gonna go against more or less real class b players (except for 1 pair i will not mention nalang).

i guess it wasn't our time lang gid. didn't go through to the final round, despite what everyone thought because of the point system rule. we had a 3 way tie for the finals but the pointing rule didn't see us through. but it was okay because we beat the ones we needed to beat and was beaten by "friendly fire" naman so okay lang. as long as na pirdi ang dapat lang i-perdi. in the end, it is just a sport. we all love it, no question. but some people should learn to be good sports lang.

happy to see old friends again. reconnected with an old assumption classmate from way back and i'm glad to hear how her life has turned out. ann is now a mother of two and her husband seems to be a really nice guy.

syempre the usual people were there. happy man ako that dorlyn and mike dropped by to cheer (even for a few minutes). sportsville is way out there and it is hard to get there. so thank you guys for coming! dorn, gift mo next time nalang.

the whole thing ended pretty late. had dinner about 9pm na. by that time didn't have much of an appetite. jing wasn't feeling so good so it was basically me, mike and rexam for the rest of the night.

funny how i went to iloilo to get to see how my friends were doing and ended up bumping into the same people i see when i go out in roxas. i'm not complaining. its just a funny thought.

i'm just glad to be back home and care for my sore muscles. the price you have to pay for a job well done. i'm happy and proud even if we don't have a medal to show for. next time naman.

welcome home cuz!

larissa, mitch, eva, tita g and tito wern arrived last night. i'm so excited na! was buying stuff left and right at sm kagina. i don't care if they already bought the stuff they need, i'm buying more just in case. bought candies and other fun stuff for eva's party. stage mom gid ya! hehe

condolences pala to ana. she lost her beloved dog chloe last friday. i loved that rottweiler. had a lot of fond memories with chloe. gonna miss her. what can i say? we love our dogs.

unwritten by natasha beddingfield:

yes, this is the song to the pantene commercial. but heard it long before kris aquino was flipping her hair with it so she just kinda made the whole thing confusing. love the lyrics to this and this is sort of like the new rallying song for some of my friends and i.

makes you wanna ride a top down car and just sit on the back seat and go nuts. naks! how commercialish naman of me.

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined

I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines

We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten

The rest is still unwritten

The rest is still unwritten

iloilo banwa ko... forgot how the rest of the song goes

one more day to go and i'm off to iloilo! finally! i haven't been able to leave roxas since i got back more than a month ago and i'm dying to get out! sweet, sweet freedom... even if it is just for a few days.

hopefully we do good this time around. the shell tournament has been something i've been looking forward to since i missed the kalibo tournament last month. i'm so ready and raring to go.

i can just picture it out. late night talks with pam, coffee and saturday night gimik with fareng mike, the smell of competition and shuttles cracking. i miss breakthrough, afrique's, shakey's... aaaahhh!!! lakat na ko! hehe

its either this or the mymp concert here. i am sooo not in the mood to get myself all depressed! ayayay! hand me a blade and a calamansi please!

brownout pa here now so its not making time pass by as quickly as i hoped. grabi! the whole panay daw brownout. up to some parts of leyte and cebu. so much for progress. i was on the way home from a failed plan to practice one last time before the tournament and the plaza was pitch black! as in, the center of the city ha! this is so ridiculous!

iloilo banwa ko... something something hahaha a song i used to hear on the radio when i was still living there. i wonder if they have it in limewire ;)

newfound appreciation

• text messages from friends before i wake
• hot showers in the morning, especially after a night of rain
• hands free feature of my cellphone to avoid the redundancy of my job
• afternoon naps to snap me out of the numbing sensation after too many things rammed into your head the whole morning
• zesto juices... mmmm good and hits the spot for that much needed sugar high. especially the plus ones... oh joy of joys! more in one deliciously cold packet. haha i am getting so corny na!
• webcam conversations with aumi... i miss u na bes pren!
• text messages from dorlyn and mike when you feel bummed and depressed (especially around the red marked days of the month, if you know what i mean).
• hwang jini at 10pm haha!
• travel and living channel... i am addicted! its the first thing i watch in the day and the last before i doze off.

brutus, is that you?

you know how you can give so much of yourself and still come up short? how can you not take things personally when you dedicate almost every waking moment to see things through. missing breakfast, living on zestos or plus juices, eating lunch around 3pm, eating dinner (sometimes) and coming home at around 10 at times and having to get up at 6am the next day to do it all over again?

defending someone because you believe that there is good in that person regardless of their occassional bouts of dishonesty. the benefits outweigh the damages, right?

but despite all your best efforts, you still end up being stabbed in the back. time and time again. frustrating, no? sometimes you just want to pack up and go, leaving everything you know behind and start over. but life is never really like fairy tales. best thing you can do is suck it in. whats even more sad is the fact that as time passes on, you begin to immune yourself to such treacheries and choose to add a drop of doubt into almost every one you come in contact with. do i really want to live like that?

i choose to believe and trust in people. call me gullible and childish. but thats just me. i choose to trust in that person and its up to them if they choose to destroy it or not. its out of my hands. but i have the right to choose how i see people. that's as far as to what i can control.

Jesus had the same kind of people in His life. why should i be any different?

is this the best solution?

i've come to the realization these past few years that acts such as these overshadows all forms of logic and conscience. its no longer a matter of asking why. they all have their reasons. its the how that stuns. how can people be okay with the thought of causing such tragedy on others they do not even know? how valuable is one life that another can put it into one's hand and decide it should end? how can hurting a small number of people be actually good for the majority?

Terrorism is the tactic of demanding the impossible, and demanding it at gunpoint." - CHRISTOPHER HITCHENS, "Terrorism: Notes Toward a Definition"

"Terrorism is carried out purposefully, in a cold-blooded, calculated fashion. The declared goals of the terrorist may change from place to place. He supposedly fights to remedy wrongs -- social, religious, national, racial. But for all these problems his only solution is the demolition of the whole structure of society. No partial solution, not even the total redressing of the grievance he complains of, will satisfy him -- until our social system is destroyed or delivered into his hands." - BENJAMIN NETANYAHU, International Terrorism

green days

its so funny to come to the realization that i am surrounded with green right now. its not a conscious effort, by the way. out of nowhere... there it is again!

here's the thing:

• our school color is basically green, hence a whole lotta green around me!
• my soap is Dove green, its either the unscented one or the one with the mild cucumber and green tea scent. basta, i get the green one dapat. i get an allergy with the others.
• my lotion is green - Vaseline
• my shampoo and conditioner with matching leave-on is also green!
• the alcohol i have with me is green cross.
• my favorite badminton shirt at the moment is green
  

hmmm... wonder what this means... either that or i just smell like cucumber :)

blackout and pause (running out of creative titles)

blackout.. the fun kind

i'm just glad that there wasn't a blackout during the blackout party last friday. thanks to bords, stok and randy for inviting us. we had fun! obvious ba?

for a change, it was nice seeing more people going out and actually dressing for it! a few weekends ago there were a bunch of people hanging out in their sandos, spartans and not so clean pair of shorts. roxas can be so charming!

it was also nice to see our little bros and sis there. they grow up so fast. sniff sniff! seems only yesterday they were wrestling around in our front lawn on a chinese new year's night. pia, trisha, emmanuel, robbie, lester... etc.. etc..

got to see old friends who came over during the long weekend. seeing the batches come together, we were already part of the older, more mature batch. darnnit!
but it was fun and hope we get more of these parties in the future.

ay! bords, stok, pa copy man sng amon mga pics hehe

pause to reflect...

To be able to be unhurried when hurried;
To be able not to slack off
When relaxed; to be able not to be
Frightened and at a loss for what to
Do when frightened and at a loss;
This is the learning that returns us
To our natural state and
Transforms our lives. — Liu Wenmin

happy birthday, boss!

happy birthday dad/boss/sir/toto/sir toto!


we looked forward all year for this and it was well worth it! i can't believe we literally wiped out the food! poor rexam and his wife came late and were left with crepes, lechon and pancit nalang. but tried to make up for it through drinks after. cheers pare! hehe


friends and family came over but mostly were the people we work with. this year felt more like it was my birthday. long story but kapoy gid! fun fun fun! even the pastors didn't want to go home!


what a weekend!

keep in touch

growing up, a long distance call to pam in iloilo would have made my month. a call to my grandparents meant something really significant happened and this called for this important move.

a few years later, in high school, it became a trend between pam, paul, michael, joey j., and myself to communicate through snail mail. i remember the yellow pads we used to consume and how i would be saving money just so that i could mail it. funny how i sometimes end up in iloilo faster than my last letter. but for my cousins across the ocean, it meant about a month. by that time, a lot has already happened and you tend to forget what you wrote. kind of frustrating. adding to the fact that some letters mysteriously get returned or are lost.

in the beginning of the internet age, i did do a lot of emailing. but somehow they just don't get through to the other end. especially whenever my cousins were involved. hence, we were stuck to our average 2 phone calls a year. quite a challenge on our relationship.

things went on like this for a few years. it eventually spilled through other relationships that involved more effort in communicating. chat rooms were okay for a few months but useless if you're talking to someone on the opposite end of the earth. a lot of loooong naps in the afternoon and heavy eye bags.

i remember even using the buddy phone before. sort of the grandfather of the ym version used these days. problem was the voices were lagging and i often find my mic being borrowed so its often one sided.

i guess thats why i'm one of the few people who actually have the patience for long distance relationships since its been years of experience and practice for me.

now you have the cellphones. i still remember back in college how lesley used to be the only one in our class with a cellphone equipped with sms. i was still stuck on the star tac then. the only thing i would use it for was to call my dad that i was on my way home or when i was already back in iloilo. such fun!

i finally got into the sms and lesley was my text mate back then since no one else had one yet and the teachers thought we were just computing on the problems at hand. ha! they didn't have a clue! until about a year went by.

then they started charging it P1 per message. i still mourn the day it happened.

at present, there are just so many ways to keep in touch. phone, email, yms, cellphones... in different shapes, sizes and ring tones. it just blows my mind sometimes. a bit overwhelming at some points as well. at present, i have a friendster, multiply, myspace and facebook accounts. although i've abandoned my myspace account already. i can't get my passwords and user ids right na! but i can't get rid of them so easily 'coz along with them goes important contacts. so many choices and so many ways of getting through! even my dogs have friendster accounts (not my idea but i'm amazed at how many people also have accounts for their pets)! i think buknoy is more popular than me!

technology has really done so much to improve on relationships. be it relationships over great distances, relationships lost and found, new ones and relationships that is made better because of it. i can name some people i've gotten to be good friends with because of these mediums and wouldn't have it any other way.

i still need to buy a internet cam and mic (the things i do for you guys! as in!). for aumi most especially! miss you!

so as i end this blog, i casually sign in on my email accounts (again, in plural form). keep in touch!

Table for Three and a Cup of Irony

scenario:
girl 1 : mother of 1, strong, ambitious and slightly in the middle of almost everything she has ever gotten herself into. spontaneous and chatty to most people. a mix of naive and skeptical all in one.

girl 2 : wife, independent yet traditional, spontaneous yet dignified, daring on the outside but conservative on the inside.

girl 3 : single, strong-willed yet unsure, content but discouraged, speaks her mind but at times mistaken as aloof.

an interestingly ironic threesome to see. ironic as the key word. its so fascinating to see people with their own contradictions.

PEYUPS!

this was posted by dorlyn through my friendster account. la lang. for fun. fellow iskolar ng bayan, answer naman ta!

UP student ka ba?
yup yup yup

UPCAT passer?
ob chors

Student number?
96-48916 (oh d ba! memorize pa!)

Course?Major?
BSBA Mktg

Do you really like it there?
oh yes!

Is this your first choice of campus?
not exactly

Why or why not?
last choice ko actually. God sent that I ended up in UP though. Thought would really end up in DLSU.

San- san ka nag-apply nacolleges/universities?
~ ADMU, DLSU, Miriam, UA&P... whew!

Dumadalaw ka pa ba sa UP or dadalaw kapa ba khit grad ka na?
~ oh yes yes

The best thing about UP?
~ classmates, no uniforms!, tuition P3thousand something lang! Hello! Fun, eccentric and brillant professors, the kamote q, kikiam and manga with ginamos sa ybiernas, cut class whenever you want, hanging out sa mga mushrooms, oblation run (before it was banned), trips to miagao, sportsfest, hasa, aaahhh!!! miss ko na!

What do you miss or youre going tomiss?
~ all of the above and moreFave place mo don? Bakit yun?~ bench in front of the coop, mushroom near the silak/silab tambayan.. dunno why.. it just was

Fave day mo? Why?
~ wed! hahaha

Fav e building?Why?
~ hmmm... cguro sa mga nb rooms

L east fave building? Why?
~ HB! I agree with dorn, mutant mosquitoes! plus the bench under the acacia, super iras! si max gid na victim.

Memor ize mo ba yung UP Hymn?
~ actually, up to 1st line lang hahaha

Pabori to mong prof?~
mariel and barrido... uyyyy... hahaha

Bakit siya/sila?
~ ka berks na... heheh with benefits pa

Pinaka-ayaw mong prof?
~ brod pete! forever and ever! i swear!

Bakit siya?
~ ha! let me count the ways.. seeing his butt never really helped things... nightmare!

Naglalak ad ka ba lagi?
~ yup!

Madalas ka ba sa lib pag vacant mo?
~ haha actually, never borrowed from the library. xerox nalang sa classmates

Sino chancellor sa UP?
~i forgot... si audrey remembers

Gusto mo ba ung Perspective?
~ok naman

If you weren't in UP,nasaan ka?
-~DLSU gid... 100% sure

Sa tingin mo malaki b angmaitutulong ng UP sayo?
~ definitely!

Nagchi-cheer ka ba ng go UP!!??
~uhh.. d naman kami naga win in sports. the cheering squad wins anyway so they cheer for themselves.

Anong masasabi mo kay Oble?
-~ father ni richard gomez daw... may family resemblance? hmmm... whatchathink?
Gano ka na katagal nagaaral sa UP?
~ 4 years

Ano masasabi mo sa mga kaklase mo?
~ we are all wierd yet brillant in our own right... naks!

Eh sa classroom niyo?
~ malamok, naga shake whenever the ceres passes by, sakit sng chairs!Anong floor classroom niyo?~ tanan

San ka madalas kumakain?
~ sa hs canteen,... best kikiam and lapit sa ybiernas gate

Ano inoorder mo dun?
~ kikiam! bonding namun ni lesley gid

K u makain ka ba ng street food sa labasng campus?
~ ybiernas gani e :)

Eh anong college ang may pinakamagandang bldg?
~ uhhh... basta indi lang sotech hahah

Inggit ka naman?
~ city naman kami ya no! May PE ka pa ba?~ tapos na... wuhu!

Kung meron ano un?~bowling, badminton, soc rec and physical fitness (ugh!)Masaya ka naman ba sa pe mo?
~yup!

Bayad ka na ba sa tuition?
~ yup

Bumili ka na ba ng UP jacket?
~ wla... sticker lang and bluechips shirts and whatever was available during sportsfest

May balak?
~ yup

Eh ung tshirts?
~ may ara na! heheh thanks mam mariel!

Nakapa gpapicture ka na ba k oble?
~ hahaha! yak! medyo.... hahah

Ilang beses na?
~ secret!

Baki t kaya madaming turista dumadayo sacampus natin?
~ may ara man...

Natry mo nabang dasalan mga rebulto saUP?
~ hahaha! buang na na ya!