where did i keep my other notes?

Its times like these I know God has a very unique sense of humor. But, I guess He knows I'll be laughing about this sometime down the road. Although I am still squirming at the moment. Once again, He has his very distinct way of teaching. Direct, full frontal view of the whole thing and leaving nothing out.

There's this woman in church that I try to avoid. She's not outright mean or anything but she has this tactless way of talking. It just irritates me and it hits you right where you're pride is comfortably resting. Gaaah! I dunno. It's the way she looks at people. That includes me. I have no idea how this all came about. I don't really talk to her talk to her but every time our paths cross in church she just gets my goat each time. Pure overheard her one time and I just saw her head jerk and look at me in a look that just showed how I was feeling at that instant.

I'd like to call it the holier-than-thou-and-you're-not-one-'coz-I-don't-join-your-group sorta thing. Sad but thats the reality for some Christians these days. Christianity gutter as some people call it. It's like having your own gang or something. Yes, I am 100% for fellowship and everything since we all need someone to rely on and everything. But we shouldn't just stick to what we know. Jesus Himself was friends with everybody. He hung out with people the Pharisees and Sadducees stuck their noses up to. So what makes us any different? By hanging out with "unbelievers" we get to show them what God's love and grace is like. The concept is so simple but its sort of like a thing between some Christians. It's sad I think. No one has the right to judge, period. Be it an old Christian or a new one. God touches each one differently and only He will know up to what extent and what level. We can all learn from each other. And each one has a unique relationship with God, group or no group.

Anyways, God had this bright plan of setting me up to hold the Young Adult's meeting for the month of April last Saturday. I just kept telling myself that I'm not doing this for her since she is the president this time. I'm doing this for God and for my other fellow church members. She got to hit some low blows at some points and I just pity those that didn't know any better. Hay...

Well, when the meeting adjourned she told me it was my turn to speak next month. I know I will need to learn a lot until then. Not a bad first step, I know. Kinda see prospects on what direction I should take. Hopefully touch on this a bit. Still have to pray about it. But 'til then, I have to check my pride at the door.